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Saturday, December 12, 2009

My Butchered Body

I have just had a total emotional breakdown. Today was the first time I have seen my body in a full length mirror since the operation. And my body is butchered. The cut is about 15cm long and along the top of my pubic area. The cut is not even straight. It is blue and purple, yellow and swollen. The cut looks like a potato sack that has been sewn up quickly


I broke down in tears and Mom went to fetch my beautiful B, who is busy fixing our gutters. He walked into the bedroom and looked at me standing with just my towel wrapped around me and big tears rolling down my face...."Look", I said, "Looked at how they have butchered my body"


My darling B took me in his arms and said "I think you look beautiful"


Universe please bless my B....he is so good to me


4 comments:

mash said...

Hey Brats, you should see my belly, it looks like when they butterfly a chicken. From the sternum all the way down. Oh yes, and there's a hole in my side where the drain was, it's like a dent. But I took a decision right in the beginning to keep wearing bikinis, because scars aren't ugly, they are something to be proud of. They make you who you are, special. And sometimes, I see people staring, and I've completely forgotten that I have scars, and I wonder what they are looking at, and then I remember and laugh. Use the Justine Tissue Oil if you can get your hands on it, your scar will be snow white in two weeks. Works better than vitamin E oil. Love and hugs xxxx

sophie said...

Oh no Bratty, sorry for the scar. I believe it will get much better with time. Do you have to go back to remove stitches or something ?

Bratty said...

Thanks Mash...as soon as the scar has closed some more, I have bought Bio Oil...I found that Justine gave me many pimples..

Yup Sophie...I am going in tomorrow to have the stitches removed

The wound does look alot better today...but I still look at my wound and it reminds me of my vulnerability and difficulty to be able to produce LO's....

Anonymous said...

Oh poeks - I'm so so so sorry, honey!! I thought of you the whole w/end and I hope that you're feeling better now. xxx