Eighteen Weeks

Okay...so here they are ....the first official pictures of my "Big" Belly. I am now 18 weeks pregnants and my little Angel is growing at one rapid rate. My Belly grows on a daily basis and so does the scale.

Currently, I am weighing in 5.5 kgs more ......"freak out" stuff..I know. I always promised that I would not stress about my weight when I was pregnant ..but guess what...I LIED...hee hee

This week has brought a change is my leg and bottom size. These seem to be swelling past the "J Lo" effect. Apparantly this is quite normal. Body is storing fat for breastfeeding.

My Boobs have also jumped out some more. I had to go and buy some new Bras on Friday...and guess what size....my Darling sisters will eat their heart out for these knockers...I bought a 36DD..and it fits nicely...(naturally my B is loving having his own "Playgirl" at home)

We started the babies room this weekend. I have changed the theme again. When I thought I was having a little boy, I was determined to do Dr Seuss...but for some strange reason, having a little girl has made me all soft. I am doing her room in a soft lime green...I bought her a "Treehouse' sleigh cot and she is getting a Loola Bebe Confort pram....but I will post pictures when the room is finished.

Everything is happening so fast...we have our 19 weeks scan on Wednesday.

My Morningsickness is still hovering in the background but I can cope with this...the heartburn has set in..but it is okay..I can still handle it. I am starting to feel semi normal. I cannot wait for my tastebuds to return to "Pre-pregnancy" state.

Will KUP with regular "Belly" pics...

Love to all

Enjoy

My BFF

Today, I got a parcel from London, from my BFF....Inside the parcel was a box..this box

Inside the box were lotsa and lotsa of baby girl clothes.......I spread them across my work desk

Look at these little panties......and shoes.....too sweet

I am just such a spoilt brat with lotsa broody Aunties around.....smile

Fatso No 1

Oh well...check out those Chipmunk cheeks....

We got the photos today of my B's works Soccer function...I nearly died....

I immediately called my B and Said "Why did you not let me know that I am looking so chubby" ...his response "You look beautiful"

So, I have decided I am going to post a weekly photo so that everyone can see how fat I am getting...heee heee

PS..I thought I was doing well. I am 17 weeks and have put on 3.5 kgs. My chipmunk cheeks are singing a different tune....well back to the carrots I go...

My 15W3D Scan - Extended Version

Well, yesterday was a day that changed my life forever. I cannot, cannot tell you how I feel inside cause my words are just not enough to express my joy....all the morning sickness, all the misery and moans, are so worth it

The day started with a butterfly sensation...this day was a good day. I met my B at the Gynaes office...we waited...at 9:30 sharp we went into his office..After some questions, I jumped onto his scanning table. He measured this...and measured that. Everything was perfect. Stitch was perfect. Fibroid was behaving. We had told him that we wanted to know the sex of our baby.

After sometime he looked at my B and said "What do you want?"...my B sheepishly admitted he wanted a little girl...but was happy with a little boy. Then Dr RvR looked at me and asked the same question. I admitted that a girl was first option but I just felt that it was a boy and I was happy with that. He smiled and said "Well, it is very clear...you are having a little Girl"

Well, that was me..I was finished...the tears rolled down my face...the tear rolled down my B's face...and Dr RvR battled to finish my scan with all the heaving in my stomach from my "snot en tranne"...it was the most magical feeling knowing that I have this beautiful, precious little girl growing inside of me...for this I give big thanks to the Universe

Now, there is something I must say which will help you understand why this "information" has been so emotional and good for me. All my life, I have wanted a little girl...a little girl that looked like her Mommy. I have dreamt about my little girl. However, I have also been petrified of having a little girl. As a child I had an experience that extended from the age of 6 until 11 years old...an experience that no child should ever have to go through. This has made me extra fearful of bringing a little girl into this world.

I was fearful that I will be over-protective of our little girl. I was afraid that History would repeat itself. I was afraid that I would fail as a Mother to notice the signs and protect my Angel. I felt that because of my past and my failure to deal with it, that the Universe would never entrust me with a little girl. But then the Universe, once again, intervened and said "M..you need to deal with this now and forever put it to rest"...so it sent me the most precious gift it could...A little Girl.

My B and I have already discussed this with our Counsellor...and I will be starting extra sessions to help me.

You see, God and the Universe knew what I needed ...and the message could not have been clearer..

Thank you

My 15W3D scan

I am so excited...the scan was absolutely amazing....I could not believe the miracle growing inside of me...

But I will update later.....just to let all my readers know...I am having a little Girl...so I welcome "Jada" into our lifes

If my B did not have ears his smile would have extended right around...

Yippeee....

One More Sleep

This is going to be a short blog. I am so excited......yippeee....

Why, you ask??????? ....hee hee

No 1. I am feeling alot better. I am still have morning sickness...but the space inbetween the feelings is getting alot longer....

No 2. My Sex drive is increasing...I know, I know..too much info...but I have one very happy husband at home

No 3. My B and I have Big plans for 2011...cannot discuss now..but it will be changing our lifes

No 4. I am going for our "16" week scan tomorrow. I am preparing myself that this scan will be awesome. I am hoping to get a better look at "Bratty Junior" and find out if it is a boy or a girl. Yahooooo

No 5. I have this butterfly sensation inside of me that says "Yoo World..I am pregnant"...It is nice..!!

So tomorrow, I will give you all a big update ....but for now...ONE MORE SLEEP

A Little Bit of This and Little Bit of That

Sorry I have been so quiet lately....I have been in "another kinda" mood. I have had my own little "Pity Party" with just me and my mind in attendance.

Work has been hectic. My Assistant, Wilma, had her baby..a beautiful little boy called Dewald..weighed in at 3.3 kgs. So basically, I have been doing my job and her job...kept me very occupied. Have just gone through month end..and had to put on my "focus" cap. I am always amazed how kick ass I can be when I need to. When the pressure is on at work, I deliver....and actually enjoy it.

On the pregnancy note, I am still suffering from all ailments you can think of...here is the lists

1. Hair loss

2. Metal taste in mouth

3. Daily nose bleeds

4. Daily gum bleeds

5. Tiredness

6. Burping

7. Cramping

8. Spotting

9. Backache

10. And my personal favourite, nausea accompanied by daily sessions of talking to my porcelain friend...which is aggravated more by the daily 5 tablets that I have to take

Now normally, I believe in mind over matter...but I have really taken major strain over the last week. I have slipped into a "major" depression. I have been unable to get my mind around positive thinking...I wake up every morning saying "Today is going to be a Good day"...I then greet my porcelain friend and all positiveness flushes away.

I have been so flat I have not even been able to comment on my normal blogs that I visit. I have thrown Fertilicare by the wayside (at the moment) because, honestly, I am battling to be positive. How can I tell someone that just got her BFN that I am sorry...when here I am pregnant and moaning....oh dear..I sound just awful

I have many a day burst into tears and said to my B "I cannot take this any more...two months of vomiting"...."I hate being pregnant"....I prayed to the the Universe to please help..either ease the nausea or give me the tools to cope. Help me, please...this is what I have wanted for so long.

To top off my "fantastic" mood, my poor B has been without Nookie nooks since the beginning of March and had starting to look at me with squint eyes. Okay, before you think that I am just cruel, understand...we started IVF end Feb...my B had a testicular biopsy (so was out of action)..I then fell pregnant and Vitalab told us under no circumstances must we have "intercourse" until 9 weeks...we listened. Then at 9 weeks, I started spotting...freak out...!!!!! But besides that, I was hurling all day long and I was not in the slightest bit interested in being amorous. Then came my 13 week scan which just topped off a fantastic pregnancy so far

I know, I know...this whole blog post is so pathetic..so full of me! me! me! me!..and self pity...

Well, my B and I had a huge fight on Sunday night...we do not fight...I think we have maybe 4 arguments a year. I cried myself to sleep. But, in the hindsight, it was the best thing to happen to me. My B is my world and is very patient with me. People who know my B will tell you, my B adores me and would do anything it required to protect me. He is a good man and deserves to be treated well

So, when I woke up Monday morning, I had a good look at me...and realised that the problem lies with me. I started to think about "What if I was pushing my B into another womans arms and he leaves me".....(freaky stuff, I know, because my B would never do something like that).

So, I have tried to change my attitude....I am eating all day but small meals to ease the morning sickness. I make sure that I have fruit on me in the car so that I am not nausea when I get home. I am trying to keep my mind very occupied so that I do not think about what my body is doing. And best of all, my B got some Nookie nooks...so he is in heaven at the moment and cannot stop smiling...hee hee!

Please, if you read this blog, I am very happy to be pregnant...I want our baby very much..I think I am just going through a phase in my life where I needed to hit a bottom level so that I can grow some more.

I am currently on my 4th day without vomiting..and I am very proud - SCRAP THAT ONE....I went 3 day without vomiting...

The Universe sent me all the ailments with my pregnancy to make me stronger, to make me appreciate my B even more..and in the end, to make me the best Mom in the world.

Thank you Universe

PS..We still do not know if our little Brat is a boy or a girl...we will find out hopefully at our 16 weeks scan next Wednesday.