My 15W3D Scan - Extended Version

Well, yesterday was a day that changed my life forever. I cannot, cannot tell you how I feel inside cause my words are just not enough to express my joy....all the morning sickness, all the misery and moans, are so worth it

The day started with a butterfly sensation...this day was a good day. I met my B at the Gynaes office...we waited...at 9:30 sharp we went into his office..After some questions, I jumped onto his scanning table. He measured this...and measured that. Everything was perfect. Stitch was perfect. Fibroid was behaving. We had told him that we wanted to know the sex of our baby.

After sometime he looked at my B and said "What do you want?"...my B sheepishly admitted he wanted a little girl...but was happy with a little boy. Then Dr RvR looked at me and asked the same question. I admitted that a girl was first option but I just felt that it was a boy and I was happy with that. He smiled and said "Well, it is very clear...you are having a little Girl"

Well, that was me..I was finished...the tears rolled down my face...the tear rolled down my B's face...and Dr RvR battled to finish my scan with all the heaving in my stomach from my "snot en tranne"...it was the most magical feeling knowing that I have this beautiful, precious little girl growing inside of me...for this I give big thanks to the Universe

Now, there is something I must say which will help you understand why this "information" has been so emotional and good for me. All my life, I have wanted a little girl...a little girl that looked like her Mommy. I have dreamt about my little girl. However, I have also been petrified of having a little girl. As a child I had an experience that extended from the age of 6 until 11 years old...an experience that no child should ever have to go through. This has made me extra fearful of bringing a little girl into this world.

I was fearful that I will be over-protective of our little girl. I was afraid that History would repeat itself. I was afraid that I would fail as a Mother to notice the signs and protect my Angel. I felt that because of my past and my failure to deal with it, that the Universe would never entrust me with a little girl. But then the Universe, once again, intervened and said "M..you need to deal with this now and forever put it to rest"...so it sent me the most precious gift it could...A little Girl.

My B and I have already discussed this with our Counsellor...and I will be starting extra sessions to help me.

You see, God and the Universe knew what I needed ...and the message could not have been clearer..

Thank you