My Gratitudes for Today

I am still awaiting news on my little fighter.....

Yesterday, I left work early. I needed to be alone with my Angels. I needed them to heal my soul and give me comfort that this is my path. Now this might sound mad. But my Angel do not actually talk back. A warm calm sensation comes over me and helps me fight another day. This internal dialogue is very powerful in healing.

As I was driving home, all my favourite songs were playing on the radio. I found myself smiling. Something was telling me "Its going to be okay". I have made peace with the fact that my last embie might not survive. If this happens, then it is not my time. I will keep on trying...and I will succeed. I know that I am meant to be a Mom...just how I get there is the question?

Yesterday, when Dr J called..he could not get hold of me. So he called my B. My Bs heart was broken that he had to call me and tell me the news. Today, I am keeping my cellphone on me all day so that Dr J can talk to me. My B is still in alot of pain from his cut, his heart is sore....today, I will protect him...this is my gift to him

So, I am taking a page out of angelsonmymind and giving thanks for being able to do an IVF process.

I am joining the strong women who have walked this path. And believe you me, they are strong woman. This is what I have learnt from the process.

1. It is expensive ...smile

2. It requires endurance.

3. You need to get used to being a pin cushion....plenty of injections

4. It requires extreme strength....there are so many ups and downs.

5. It requires patience

6. It requires flexibility....time off, sitting at the doctor, changing game plan

7. It requires one awesome woman, who can take on the world

I take my hat off for all the IVF ladies...I almost feel not worthy to be amongst them