The Condition of my Mind

Well, I am in the 2ww period....still quite a few days until I test to see if my 1st IVF is successful. I think that I am doing okay....besides the Gestone injections...eekkk.

Last night my B was only able to give me the injection after 9 o'clock because my courage went AWOL. My B is so good at giving me my injections...so I do not know what I am afraid of. I do not feel the needle going in...it is only the next day that I feel this nasty little lump that hurts when I walk fast or run.

Now this might sound silly...but I am so grateful that I have been allowed the pleasure of entering the 2 weeks waiting. It is an honor that for two whole weeks...I just might be pregnant. I am loving every minute of a "potential" pregnancy. I am making my B talk to our baby.

Yupp, stats are not great for positive results on the 1st IVF...but does that really matter....cause I know for two weeks I AM PREGNANT...regardless of what any doctor or fertility specialist thinks. To know that a fertilized egg was put back into your womb...wow...

I have been thinking about this whole "Peeing on a Stick" thing....it is very tempting. But I am really going to try hard not too. I need to trust this journey. I need to believe in this journey. And whilst I think that I am pregnant, for two weeks, why cut it short. I am going to enjoy this moment

On the good side of things, my boobies are huge....I love them being this size....but today they started to burn....ahhhhh....the joys of fertility drugs. I wonder if Dr J will give me a regular prescription so that I can keep my big boobies. Smile

For today, I will remain calm......