I have started spotting...this has just added to my stress levels. I have been told it is quite normal....well, yupp..you try get through the next few days spotting!!!!. Hmmmmm...I thought the toilet paper "roll checks" were over once you get your BFP. I just need my Beta to double tomorrow...please Universe
I am totally confused by my emotions. I thought the day I got my BFP I would be so happy..it would mean the end of my "dry years"..if thats what I can call it. I would be like all the other woman...
Don't get me wrong...I am very happy. I just feel out of depth...like I am in between worlds right now. I actually don't belong anywhere. I am no longer "battling" and I am not "pregnant. Did I mention that I am also super sensitive at the moment. I hover between breaking out in smiles and bursting into tears. I have wanted to be pregnant since the age of 20/21...and it was never a possibility. Now I am "pregnant"....and what do I want to do....crawl back into my tortoise shell...
I got this poem this morning from one of my fertilicare ladies....it came at a time when I needed a reminder about having faith
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Brats you've been through so much and you're still so very much on that rollercoaster.... so to feel like climbing back into your shell is understandable. Just remember that your positivity and belief brought you to this place so hang onto it with all 10 fingers and never stop believing! Your prayers have been answered and your angel has been sent from heaven. Keep beleiving and stay positive!
Take the time you need to work through your emotions and make sense of it all.
Remember our mind and body are connected so keep the mind positive and your body will react positively!!!
You've done it, you've achieved your goal, now keep on at it... keep up the faith and never stop believing!
You're a true inspiration :-)
Hang in there girlfriend
xxx
Our precious, darling and most beloved Bratty. I am sending you massive hugs - I want you to get through this more than anything! You're a strong woman - look at what you have conquered! Thinking of you every day xxxxxxxxxx
Thinking of you Bratty !
Unfortunately spotting is pretty common in IVF pregnancies which sucks cos it scared the crap out of you (or I imagine it does can't talk from personal experience).
Hang onto your belief that all will be fine Bratty, you're pregnant now and that is just wonderful. Take it one day at a time.
All the best for your 2nd beta tomorrow.
HUGS
xxx
I am so thrilled that this could be it for you Bratty. I felt the same each time I was "pregnant" - very wierd concept and scary - hard to know what to think...but keep positive and just take one moment at a time. Trust and keep believing in your miracle - that's what you can do right now...good luck for beta 2...am waiting for only good news xxx
OMG!!! I thought you had abandoned your blog, because I just never saw any posts on bloglines.com (which tracks all my blogging buddies for me). WTH. WTF in fact. Here I was thinking you were just experiencing your pregnancy quietly, not wanting input from all of us... STUPID STUPID bloglines!
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