Yippee...Its 2010

At last it is 2010....I am so happy. This year is going to be a good year. I have decided to focus on my Spiritual well being. I am going to do alot of courses...first one I am going to do is a Reiki course. I am determined to make a difference this year...not only for me, but for everyone around me. I want to thank all the loved ones that have supported and carried me through a bad year.

Well, I must say, 2010 did started with a bang. On Saturday night at 12:30 in the evening, our door bell rung. Both B and me got such a fright. We switched over to the cameras to see +/- 8 policeman and two policevans in our driveway....what the f**** !!!. My B went out to see what they wanted. Apparently, one of the neighbours heard a big bang and had called them. The police were going from door to door checking that all was in order. We think that our direct neighbours let off a crackers...arsholes!! At least is was excitement in our life...smile

On another note..I am back at work today. Yahoo...NOT!!! I was pleasantly surprised at how my ladies coped whilst I was away. There was very little backlog. I was happy that I did not come back to mountains of work.

I also got on the scale this morning. The first time since my op. I was very nervous because I have been eating like a little piglet whilst at home. I was surprised that I only weighed 64 kgs...not too bad. I was expecting to be closer to 70 kgs. I feel so fat. I feel like a little piglet. BUT the scale did not show it...shoooh...what a relief!

My B and I are working on a plan to get the money in order for us to do first IVF treatment. All our excess funds were spent on Vet bills and previous surgery....boo hoo....but I believe that somehow the money will come our way. Positive thinking hey?

As you can tell, my mind is in a better mind frame. From just a few weeks ago, when I vowed that I will not have a baby, to now, I am actually contemplating going forward. I know that deep down inside I must give it a shot. I have to put my fear of a caesar aside. Everyone keeps telling me that once the baby is born, I will forget about all the pain. Hmmmmmm...I wonder.

This year is going to be goooooodddddd....I just know it. I can feel it deep down in my soul.

I believe it..!