I sat in the bath yesterday with my B, and I was moaning again about how unwell I am at the moment...always moaning, always groaning....what the hell has come over me?
I am generally a happy lucky go kinda girl...I have always been a tough cookie who does not complain about the niggly nagglys in life.....BUT this has all changed since I have fallen pregnant.
I am probably the most miserable person I know right now...and I hate it.
I am so scared that I will not enjoy my pregnancy...I am so scared that I will become one of those miserable pregnant woman that everyone avoids...I am so scared that this spills over into my new born and I become a miserable mother....grrrrrr...so many things I am afraid off.
Our counsellor told me on Saturday to stop looking into the future. I need to focus on living one day at a time...surviving today....
Well let me tell you about today....................................
Woke up this morning, felt very nausea's..went to brush teeth...started to throw up..could not make it to the toilet and landed up throwing up in the basin. I then moved to toilet and continued the process. After that session, I blew my nose...blood again. It has been bleeding everyday. Get back into bed for ten minutes, just to get a grip...all I can smell is my dogs..they stink...yuck...I am going to throw up again. ....Oh my word...is that cigarette smoke I smell...yuck...I am going to throw up again..I manage to get dressed and take a look at myself in the mirror. I look like Angelina Jolie with my swollen, fever blisters all over my lips. My face is pale and my hair is just limp.....But if you ask me, I am going to say " I am feeling fine, Thank you"
The only thing that I can consistently hold down is sugar water....
On the bright side.....1) I am pregnant.......2) I am loosing weight
All I ask is that the world allow me this pity party and love me through it.....I am very happy that I am pregnant.
In the meantime I will continue my chant " This too shall Pass....This too shall Pass....This too shall Pass...This too shall Pass"
Oh dear...please excuse me....somebody is making toast in the office...I think I am going to throw up
11 comments:
Shame... I feel so sorry for you. It just sucks if you can't keep anything down or if anything and everything makes you want to run to the loo.
Hope that pass soon!
some do have it harder than others, don't beat yourself up! my dh made me a meal one night and i stood up told him "it stinks" and went to bed... luckily i wasn't throwing up but smells could just about send me over the edge!
Ah no...Nisey...your comment had me in stitches....thanks for the laugh
Argh that must be a terrible feeling! I think MS is enough to make anyone moan and groan. I'm so sorry you have it so badly and I hope it will go away very soon :-)
Live for today and don't worry about tomorrow, you can deal with it then... Just focus on getting through the day with as little barfing as you possibly can. When you hold that beautiful baby in your arms you'll forget you ever had MS..
Hang in there girlfriend!!!
You know, I thought you hadn't blogged in a while, but I have just discovered that my reader isn't updating your posts....wierd.
Try using those travel bands that you wear on your wrists with the pressure point on the wrist...I used those with Devz and they helped for the nausea. You should be able to buy them at any pharmacy. xx
Sorry Bratty....it's hard to focus on anything when all you want to do is get sick. But it should pass within the next couple of weeks and then you'll be fine! And you'll look back and laugh! xxx
Love you VERY much through this - and it SHALL pass!
You're almost there - just a few more weeks and then you can smile about this.. and then when you start to feel your little lamb jiggling inside you, all thoughts of this phase will be a thing of the past. And in the end, all the k@kkiness you're feeling will be so worth it.
Probably SO NOT what you want to hear right now, and I probably deserve a head butt.. :-)
Thinking of you every day!
This too will pass, this too will pass, this too will pass...
Oh Bratty. Who said being pregnant is just fun, hey?! I really hope you feel better really soon and don't worry about the fear thing. I think all of us feel that way. I know I do. I mean, what if my messed up mind messes up my son. All we can do is our best and trust in God that that's enough. Thinking of you!
Bratstix, I heard grapes are good (keep your sugar levels up). And also some more assvice, if you go to dischem, they have these things you can put on your wrists for seasickness called seabands, and they work a treat for morning sickness.
PS - skrambled, my reader also isn't updating bratty's posts??? Are you using bloglines?
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