I have a couple of blogs that I regularly comment on and never get any feedback...normally that would not bug me...but today, it saddens me...grrrrrr
I have tried all morning to break the cycle and keep positive, motivated and happy...but I have decided to give up...and let this emotion/feeling play itself out......hamba gashle pity party
The sky outside is dark and the rain is falling.....one of my friends from the forum found out that her latest cycle has not been a positive one....I feel like the heavens felt her pain...they are crying her tears.....I hope the sun comes out shortly.
When you hear news like this it brings home the reality of IVF and its process.....stats are not good. I suppose everyone wishes/believes that their 1st IVF will work....I will just have to take this one step at a time. I cannot go into this process not believing that it will work 1st time. I cannot control medical science, I cannot control what God and the Universe have install for me..but what I can control is how I feel...how I make others feel...and what I believe
I have come so far...I am not quitting now
I am now waiting for that stupid "Tannie Van Rooyen" to come....I have never wished for a period so hard. Once she comes, I can get my 1st IVF underway. (Personally, I think that is the reason I am so flat today....I think she is knocking on my door)
I have got everything in place...the money has been paid...medication has been received and stashed in the back of my cupboard (so it keeps cool) and I have my "microwave bean bag" for when I have to take the Gestone shots in the rear end.
However, I wish this horrible feeling would go away now...I have been on such a high for the last few days....it kinda feels weird to not feel good...
Ah well....God and the Universe gave me tomorrow...smile
3 comments:
Hey Brat, blame it on Tannie Van Rooyen it's her fault you feeling so aweful... Hang in there :-)
Soon soon you get your turn and soon soon you'll be one step closer to having your baby.... although there are many women whose first ivf doesn't work BUT there are many women whose first does :-) Everyone is different so let's hang onto the latter
Good luck
xxx
Ag NO man, my poepie!! I don't like it when you're down :-( And it probably is that miserable old cow AF that is making you feel this way! Hope you feel better soon - thinking of you every step of the way!
xxxx
oh dear, I think I'm guilty, I've had lots of lovely comments from you, and I never reply to comments. Sorry man. I also had a particularly nasty AF this month, but I can say that a few days down the line you will feel better...
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