Okay, now that I have got that out of my system....nahhhhh...I still don't feel better. Today, I have been in one of those " I feel sorry for myself and don't you dare take it the F... away from me" moods. I have burst into tears. I have shouted at my staff. I am a miserable b.i.t.c.h. today.
Our computers have been down. So I cannot access my accounts (work wise)..therefore, I am now officially running behind my tight schedule to complete my Management accounts.
My throat is sore and finally, my glorious AF has arrived, accompanied by one hellava PMS queen.
The good news is that I can go and get scanned tomorrow at Vitalab and start my "contraceptive" pill....yippee...I can finally get this ball rolling.
Today, I seriously debated with the Universe. Why do I have to fight for everything in my life? Why can I not just get something good without fighting for it? I am a good person. I treat people and animals well. I give my employer their ounce of flesh. Why..Why...why? Even a simple matter like having a baby is not simple...it is a battle and a fight......
I have seriously started the job hunting....but I think my personality has been so eroded by my ill treatment in this company that I am actually debating my skills. I feel incompetent and under qualified for every position.
Universe, please,....throw me a fricken life line!!!!!!!!!!!!
3 comments:
Ag nee Brattle! SO sorry that you're going through this! It's SO important that you enjoy your job - so good luck on the hunting front. I always say that you spend SO much time at work, you have to enjoy it. If you don't, then you can be quite miserable for most of your life.
Breathe Bratty. I'm okay, you're okay - we're all okay. :D.
My friend had a terrible thing happen to one of her kids, fresh of my IF life lessons, I got to tell her something important. The only important thing I might have ever told her.
Sh*t Happens. It does, not cause you suck, not cause you cheated on a Primary school math test (I know you did), it just happens.
You are a nice person, you pet animals, you like children, you don't litter (you don't do you, cause that is terrible). Don't let sh*t change that, cause we love you just the way you are :D.
Life is too short to work in a job you hate. Affirmations my dear... repeat after me "I find work that I love with people whose company I enjoy" :-)
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