Lack of focus

I started the day with a real Kick...i worked like a little demon this morning. But then, i discovered "THE BLOG" and it really has taken me back to the days of my forum surfing. The only difference is that here i can say what i want, when i want and my heart will not be broken with other TTC battles

My mind is very "roundabout topsy turvy" at the moment. I really believed that B's tests last week would give me a clearer picture of where i am going....alas, it was not meant to be.

I am currently totally repulsed by the idea of Donor Sperm...i don't quite know why...just a few months ago, i was comfortable going this route. Since our new FS gave B and I some hope, all i can picture is my B's beautiful eyes looking back at me through our LO. I have spoken in length to B and our counsellor about how i feel....i don't know...i really don't. Thank goodness i have three months to think about it.

I love my B...so i suppose it does not matter which route i take...as long as he is by my side